This is all I have to give- Blog Hop Week 2 (Prov. 31 Ministries Online Bible Study)

“Mommy’s done, it’s time for bed. Stay. In. Bed.”

Those are words I’ve said more than once to my five-year-old.  The other two boys (two & nine months) are good sleepers, but my five-year-old likes to test limits and see just how many questions he can ask and requests he can make right at bedtime.  The longer this goes on, the more spent and impatient I become.  Some nights are better than others.  But in the midst of it I’m thinking “I have no more to give today… it’s all used up.”  Once he does drift off to sleep sweet relief comes and I have a couple hours to myself and with my husband.  We’ve come to cherish this time.  But some (most) days I just feel like sitting on the couch to check emails, watch TV with my husband or just get a hot bath and go to bed!

It used to be that spending time with Jesus and having a devotional time was something else on my to-do list.  It looked something like this:  pick up milk and eggs, wash sheets, email mom, devotional time.  And sadly, most days everything else got completed on my to-do list except spending time with my Creator.  My Creator! The One who made me, the One who saved me and the One who gives me the strength I need each and every day.  How could I neglect my time with Him?

Since that time in my life I’ve come to realize that I didn’t know what I was missing by not spending time with Jesus regularly.  I didn’t realize that the more I intentionally spent time with Him, the closer we’d become, the more I’d hear His voice and the more I’d see Him working in my life.  My priorities have since changed and I never want to go back to that place in my life where Jesus was last on my list!

We, as mothers, are pulled in so many directions, all the time.  Someone or some thing is constantly needing from us… with three kids ages five and under I’m needed all day.  From the time those sleepy eyes open, until the time the last bottle and/or sip of water is given.  If I’m not connected with Jesus throughout the day and intentional about my time with Him and about being in constant prayer, then my family gets the grumpy leftovers of me come bedtime.

I’m reminded of Ephesians 6:7, “Serve wholeheartedly, as if you were serving the Lord, not people.”  I’m committing this verse to memory so that when my five-year-old needs one more drink or one more story or one more hug, I will freely and gladly give it as if serving the Lord and remind myself that through my service and love, my children are seeing Him.  I have to rely on the Lord’s strength for this, not my own. He never tells us “This is all I have to give.”




15 thoughts on “This is all I have to give- Blog Hop Week 2 (Prov. 31 Ministries Online Bible Study)

  1. Mommy’s done. Love that! I know those feelings and remember those days. Now I spend them with my grandson and hopefully soon another little one is on the way. They seem so hard at the moment and then one day they are grown and I promise it g`

    • And I do promise it goes so fast. That grandson is pushing keys with me. LOL! I can relate to one wanting a drink or need to go to the bathroom, but it probably won’t last long. Thanks for sharing. And yes it is refreshing when they FINALLY go to sleep so you can enjoy your hubby and your Creator. Thanks for sharing. Debbie W. (Proverbs 31 Ministries OBS Team)

  2. wow such a beautiful written post! being a mommy of only one so far, working full time, when i get home i think am so spent that theres no way ill be able to have any quality time with my boy, and sometimes i just pray that he will sleep so i can rest (insert mommy guilt here) but you are right, when we pray we have that supernatural strenght to serve even when we think “this is all i have to give” because knows its not all He has to Give. thank you so much!!!
    ps. when i clicked on your name on your answer on my blog, it took me to another blog that hasnt been posted in 4 years. is it yours too?

    • Chica, thank you for reading the post. I worked full-time (and had a part-time job as well) with my first two boys. I remember those long days and how the evenings were spent rushing through dinner, bath time and bedtime. It was exhausting and there was a lot of guilt. But remember that guilt is not from God…it’s the Enemy trying to trip you up, make you feel guilty and discourage you. Stay in the Word and keep His truth in your heart. Praying for God’s strength and rest for you, mama.

  3. Thank you for that beautiful quote from Ephesians 6:7 “Serve wholeheartedly as if you were serving The Lord , not people”. That is something for this mom to take to heart!

  4. Amen Mama… I love this verse…Ephesians 6:7 – My children are teenagers, but if you read my blog this time, you will see I was “spent” this past weekend! Done – because I had not started my day (as I usually do) with the Lord! We sure do pay when we don’t start with him don’t we…. What a blessing you have been to me today…Keep on blogging…

  5. I want to read all of the blogs but then that would add to my “lack of sleep” dilemma. I decided to choose one tonight. And maybe tomorrow, I will read another. Every one of us has something unique to bring to this study. I am glad I chose your blog to read tonight. Many of your thought are my thoughts too. Thank you for sharing your heart. Good night!

    • Theresa, thank you for your precious words… just knowing someone can relate to me and that I’m not alone in this journey is so encouraging. I, too, want to stay up to read other blogs, but like you I am missing some much-needed sleep! Blogging is very new to me so hearing that this blessed you in some way gives me motivation to continue sharing my heart.

  6. Amanda, remember, you doing Gods work everyday taking care of those special children that he has put in your care. Jesus doesn’t demand your time, He knows you are tired. I am enjoying your writings, true from your heart. before you know it, you will be crying because they are off to college, trust me, life goes by way to fast.

  7. I loved your application of Ephesians 6:7. My girls have the same bedtime escape tactics, and although my youngest is a great sleeper, her need to be just like big sister has brought us some frustrating bedtimes. Even though I will have to stand my ground and say bedtime is bedtime at some point, I feel like thinking of this verse will allow that to be said to my children in love and not frustration. Thank you so much for sharing!

  8. Oh man, this was so me last night! By 9:30 I had had it! I said, “mama’s done! She’s getting grouchy, and she’s DONE!”
    I love this verse and am going to apply it today. So thankful that Jesus is never ‘done’ with me…

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