If you would have come to my house around five o’clock yesterday afternoon I can promise that you would have turned around, walked out of the door and never returned. Yesterday wasn’t pretty. At. All. Let me paint the picture for you: an obstinate, cranky, didn’t-get-his-nap-out toddler yelling at the dinner table and refusing to eat, a tired, sick 9-month-old crying in the highchair, a rambunctious five-year-old wanting attention from mom and/or dad, a frazzled mommy and an overwhelmed daddy. Throw all of that together, coupled with poor communication and bad attitudes and you have a tension-filled environment, like a volcano about to erupt! It was one of those days… those days. The kind of day where you could use a do-over. The kind of day that you’d be embarrassed for anyone to be in your house to witness firsthand. The kind of day where you want to crawl in your bed and under the covers, never to be seen again (at least not until 6:30 the next morning when said rambunctious five-year-old wakes you up.)
But we don’t get do-overs on days like this, do we? We can’t crawl in our beds or run away, even if we feel like it. It’s at those times we have a choice to make. For Christ-followers we either make the choice to honor Him with our attitudes, words and actions… or we don’t. And when we don’t, it usually doesn’t end well. I can tell you that yesterday didn’t end well. I was that fool that’s mentioned in Proverbs that didn’t keep my mouth in check. I was the fool that was quick-tempered and easily agitated. A fool. Have you been there before? I’m certainly not proud of it. It’s not who I want to be. But most importantly it’s not who God has made me to be. God has created me (and you) to honor Him in everything we do. To honor and respect our husbands, to love our children and show gentleness and patience and to be godly women. He’s called us to be the wise woman who builds her house, not the one who tears hers down (Prov. 14:1). I know that one bad moment, or one bad day, or one bad week doesn’t define who God has called me to be. But during those times Satan wants us to believe lies such as: you’re never going to measure up, you’ll always fail at this, so-and-so does it better than you, you should just quit trying. Lies! Have you ever believed those lies? There was a time that I did. But now I’m learning to recognize those lies and instead turn to the Truth! God’s word tells me to take everything to Him in prayer… to trust Him… to wait on Him… to spend time with Him… to honor Him…to be obedient to Him… to praise Him!
I’m thankful for a forgiving God (and a forgiving husband). I may not be able to re-do yesterday, but today is a fresh start and humbly I can make amends and press on. I’m reminded of Lamentations 3:22-23: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
I have a long ways to go. I’m certainly a work-in-progress. But I’m His work-in-progress and that gives me peace. It gives me peace to know that the God of the universe is doing a work in me that will be used to honor Him. There’s nothing or no one that can steal that kind of peace. It’s the lasting kind. Even on those yucky days that you wouldn’t want anyone to see.